Confession: Lack of sleep

Somehow I always end up like a hot dog between Addi & Zali no matter how much space they have on the bed.  Addi comes close to cuddle... & Zali boo ALWAYS wants to nurse!  My "sleep" at night feels like I take numerous mini naps in the time span of 8 hours... I haven't sleep a full 3+ straight hours in MONTHS! ... and the last time was only one night out of the past 6-7 months. It's always been few and far in between since Zali boo was born.  

If there was anything I'd change about my experience with motherhood, it would entail me getting more rest.  My eyes are constantly burning & I always feel drained and exhausted even if I were to exercise.  I think I would need a week of straight sleep to recover from all this sleep deprivation & then "sleep" a minimum of 10 hours a night - meaning I'm IN bed for 10 hours.  

My body needs to be reprogrammed to love sleep... because even though I say I want it and I miss it, I feel like there is always so much to do so falling asleep ends up being a conscious decision 98% of the time!  I just want to be able to fall asleep whenever I am tired... THAT would be a luxury!